It’s been over a month now since we stopped talking. We haven’t been together for over three years now, but this is the first time our friendship is simply gone. While that in itself is crazy to think, finally letting you go for good has changed so much for me. I never thought I would … Continue reading To Fall in Love Again
Author: socalledcitygirl
You Didn’t Choose Me Always
In dance today, Susan said, "It's important to listen and recognize our inner voices... and to know when to tell them to SHUT THE FUCK UP.” Somehow, she clearly knew I needed to hear this. For the past week or so, my inner voice has been feverous, hopeful, optimistic about you, S. But the reality … Continue reading You Didn’t Choose Me Always
the silence of your heart
“I’m scared to break down this wall. I feel like there are things I want to say but can’t.” “You can tell me anything.” This was the conversation I started that made both of us question it all. And I keep circling back to the fact of – should I have said something? Would it … Continue reading the silence of your heart
just for a moment
Stop. Stop telling me what to do. Telling me what to think. Telling me who to be. What to do. I’m pacing, back and forth across this path that leads to nowhere. The asphalt tingles the soles of my bare feet with each step that I take. My steps have a consistent cadence, seemingly like … Continue reading just for a moment
All the Things I Could Say but Don’t
I’m not sure if you’ll read this. On the off chance you do, you’ll know who you are. I’m not writing for any particular reason – I think you and I are in a good place right now. But I could be wrong, I’m really never quite sure. You keep me wondering a lot of … Continue reading All the Things I Could Say but Don’t
echos in an empty room
My choked sobs echo around the empty space in my room. They vibrate off the walls and bounce around the air in waves as the sound of new sobs follow them as tides of the ocean do. I’ve experienced pain like this. The rawness, intangible yet so piercing you can't focus on anything else. This … Continue reading echos in an empty room
Floating
I'm treading water in a pool with no walls in sight or a ladder. My option is to try the bottom, but even there is too far for me to reach. I look down at my kicking feet in the murky water and can't see deep into the blue past my toes. There is no … Continue reading Floating
I wish I could tell them.
Do you ever feel like you could say more than you do, but know that you can’t? In many of my conversations recently I’ve wanted to be blunter than usual. But in some cases, blunt isn’t always best. There are some people that have been in my life a long time and I have so … Continue reading I wish I could tell them.
Dancing in the rain
I want to dance in the rain. The sky opens up and the translucent drops fall to the ground from above. I want to be free, rain splattering on my skin, seeping into my hair. Soaking me and enveloping me within itself. Washing away my fears and worries, the things I want to forget. Granting … Continue reading Dancing in the rain
Past
Sometimes people walk into your life and everything just clicks. They’re a puzzle piece you didn’t realize was missing, a perfect fit in the open space in your inner circle. But then, suddenly, something changes and they’re no longer filling every crack of the empty space, rather they’re an awkward lump that no longer can … Continue reading Past
