At first, you were a secret. An unintentional secret. Simply a name in my phone, not yet a person to me. I’d let my mind wander about meeting you. When, if, where. Who you’d become to me. If anyone at all. I told no one of your existence because I was so afraid that this … Continue reading but i told the stars about you
Author: socalledcitygirl
where we’re at
Where are you at? I find myself asking that question so often now as I continue to try to avoid thinking about where life is going to leave us in the future. With winter coming, I have no idea where we’ll be. I know we’ll effectively be long distance, that’s for sure. Does that mean … Continue reading where we’re at
are you falling too?
You saw me before I saw you. I jaywalked across Sheridan Ave; you watching me while I was blissfully unaware of my surroundings. And then we saw each other, and you came to me and matched my pace and we took a walk that started this all. Something that I wasn’t sure would be anything … Continue reading are you falling too?
23rd of June
I want to flash forward. I want to know what the universe has planned for me, you, us. Will we be an us? I don’t know quite what we are right now. Talking but not dating but also too much not to be nothing. I feel like I know you, but I don’t “know” you … Continue reading 23rd of June
glass
I can’t remember the last time I cried. I’ve tried thinking of it. But my mind goes blank. I don’t know when this change happened. It’s one of those gradual things where it creeps up on you and you wake up one day and realize that… you’re happy. Dancing in the rain, constantly laughing, smiling … Continue reading glass
To Fall in Love Again
It’s been over a month now since we stopped talking. We haven’t been together for over three years now, but this is the first time our friendship is simply gone. While that in itself is crazy to think, finally letting you go for good has changed so much for me. I never thought I would … Continue reading To Fall in Love Again
You Didn’t Choose Me Always
In dance today, Susan said, "It's important to listen and recognize our inner voices... and to know when to tell them to SHUT THE FUCK UP.” Somehow, she clearly knew I needed to hear this. For the past week or so, my inner voice has been feverous, hopeful, optimistic about you, S. But the reality … Continue reading You Didn’t Choose Me Always
the silence of your heart
“I’m scared to break down this wall. I feel like there are things I want to say but can’t.” “You can tell me anything.” This was the conversation I started that made both of us question it all. And I keep circling back to the fact of – should I have said something? Would it … Continue reading the silence of your heart
just for a moment
Stop. Stop telling me what to do. Telling me what to think. Telling me who to be. What to do. I’m pacing, back and forth across this path that leads to nowhere. The asphalt tingles the soles of my bare feet with each step that I take. My steps have a consistent cadence, seemingly like … Continue reading just for a moment
All the Things I Could Say but Don’t
I’m not sure if you’ll read this. On the off chance you do, you’ll know who you are. I’m not writing for any particular reason – I think you and I are in a good place right now. But I could be wrong, I’m really never quite sure. You keep me wondering a lot of … Continue reading All the Things I Could Say but Don’t
So-Called City Girl 