My choked sobs echo around the empty space in my room. They vibrate off the walls and bounce around the air in waves as the sound of new sobs follow them as tides of the ocean do. I’ve experienced pain like this. The rawness, intangible yet so piercing you can't focus on anything else. This … Continue reading echos in an empty room
Author: socalledcitygirl
Floating
I'm treading water in a pool with no walls in sight or a ladder. My option is to try the bottom, but even there is too far for me to reach. I look down at my kicking feet in the murky water and can't see deep into the blue past my toes. There is no … Continue reading Floating
I wish I could tell them.
Do you ever feel like you could say more than you do, but know that you can’t? In many of my conversations recently I’ve wanted to be blunter than usual. But in some cases, blunt isn’t always best. There are some people that have been in my life a long time and I have so … Continue reading I wish I could tell them.
Dancing in the rain
I want to dance in the rain. The sky opens up and the translucent drops fall to the ground from above. I want to be free, rain splattering on my skin, seeping into my hair. Soaking me and enveloping me within itself. Washing away my fears and worries, the things I want to forget. Granting … Continue reading Dancing in the rain
Past
Sometimes people walk into your life and everything just clicks. They’re a puzzle piece you didn’t realize was missing, a perfect fit in the open space in your inner circle. But then, suddenly, something changes and they’re no longer filling every crack of the empty space, rather they’re an awkward lump that no longer can … Continue reading Past
Sea of Memories
Forgetting the past. It’s not easy to leave behind what we once lived, what we once loved or hated. People say to forgive and forget- but what they don’t quite express is how. In my head, I always give people the benefit of the doubt. That is my issue. Because even when someone has treated … Continue reading Sea of Memories
Loneliness
One. Two. One. Two. Left. Right. Left. Right. One foot in front of the other. Just keep going. Keep walking. You can do this. With each step, my knees plead to give out and my tear ducts release the dam that has been holding the flood back. Lately each day has been the same. Miserable. … Continue reading Loneliness
Every beginning has an embarrassing start it seems
Hello and welcome to your daily dose of M’s embarrassing inability to act like a normal person in front of a guy. Yes, you read that right. Remember how I said every story of a relationship involves something super embarrassing happening at the beginning? Well, bingo. Cheers to that - here’s what happened. And also … Continue reading Every beginning has an embarrassing start it seems
Charmspeaking; the things you learn
I came across a poem today. So Close, So Far by Adeline Whitmore What a terrible thing it was To have been So close To you And now Here we are So far apart I wonder If it would’ve been better To have never felt Your love at all. To me this struck a chord: … Continue reading Charmspeaking; the things you learn
Trying too hard to be happy leads to. . . sadness?
Throughout my eighteen years of living, one thing I’ve concluded is that being happy isn’t easy. People in this world say happiness is a choice, but if it truly was that easy wouldn’t everyone simply just choose to be happy? As humans, we have this innate quest to find these so-called feelings of joy and … Continue reading Trying too hard to be happy leads to. . . sadness?
So-Called City Girl 