At first, you were a secret. An unintentional secret. Simply a name in my phone, not yet a person to me. I’d let my mind wander about meeting you. When, if, where. Who you’d become to me. If anyone at all. I told no one of your existence because I was so afraid that this … Continue reading but i told the stars about you
Where are you at? I find myself asking that question so often now as I continue to try to avoid thinking about where life is going to leave us in the future. With winter coming, I have no idea where we’ll be. I know we’ll effectively be long distance, that’s for sure. Does that mean … Continue reading where we’re at
You saw me before I saw you. I jaywalked across Sheridan Ave; you watching me while I was blissfully unaware of my surroundings. And then we saw each other, and you came to me and matched my pace and we took a walk that started this all. Something that I wasn’t sure would be anything … Continue reading are you falling too?
I want to flash forward. I want to know what the universe has planned for me, you, us. Will we be an us? I don’t know quite what we are right now. Talking but not dating but also too much not to be nothing. I feel like I know you, but I don’t “know” you … Continue reading 23rd of June
It’s been over a month now since we stopped talking. We haven’t been together for over three years now, but this is the first time our friendship is simply gone. While that in itself is crazy to think, finally letting you go for good has changed so much for me. I never thought I would … Continue reading To Fall in Love Again
“I’m scared to break down this wall. I feel like there are things I want to say but can’t.” “You can tell me anything.” This was the conversation I started that made both of us question it all. And I keep circling back to the fact of – should I have said something? Would it … Continue reading the silence of your heart
I’m not sure if you’ll read this. On the off chance you do, you’ll know who you are. I’m not writing for any particular reason – I think you and I are in a good place right now. But I could be wrong, I’m really never quite sure. You keep me wondering a lot of … Continue reading All the Things I Could Say but Don’t
I came across a poem today. So Close, So Far by Adeline Whitmore What a terrible thing it was To have been So close To you And now Here we are So far apart I wonder If it would’ve been better To have never felt Your love at all. To me this struck a chord: … Continue reading Charmspeaking; the things you learn
The sushi stares back at me eagerly awaiting to be chosen out of the plastic takeout container. Approximately five minutes ago, I slid on my ankle-high, knit snow boots, trudged outside in the frigid air without a coat, and went on a treasure hunt to find the delivery man. Five minutes before I ended up … Continue reading Salmon, cucumber, avocado.