Stop. Stop telling me what to do. Telling me what to think. Telling me who to be. What to do. I’m pacing, back and forth across this path that leads to nowhere. The asphalt tingles the soles of my bare feet with each step that I take. My steps have a consistent cadence, seemingly like … Continue reading just for a moment
thoughts
Floating
I'm treading water in a pool with no walls in sight or a ladder. My option is to try the bottom, but even there is too far for me to reach. I look down at my kicking feet in the murky water and can't see deep into the blue past my toes. There is no … Continue reading Floating
I wish I could tell them.
Do you ever feel like you could say more than you do, but know that you can’t? In many of my conversations recently I’ve wanted to be blunter than usual. But in some cases, blunt isn’t always best. There are some people that have been in my life a long time and I have so … Continue reading I wish I could tell them.
Dancing in the rain
I want to dance in the rain. The sky opens up and the translucent drops fall to the ground from above. I want to be free, rain splattering on my skin, seeping into my hair. Soaking me and enveloping me within itself. Washing away my fears and worries, the things I want to forget. Granting … Continue reading Dancing in the rain
Past
Sometimes people walk into your life and everything just clicks. They’re a puzzle piece you didn’t realize was missing, a perfect fit in the open space in your inner circle. But then, suddenly, something changes and they’re no longer filling every crack of the empty space, rather they’re an awkward lump that no longer can … Continue reading Past
Every beginning has an embarrassing start it seems
Hello and welcome to your daily dose of M’s embarrassing inability to act like a normal person in front of a guy. Yes, you read that right. Remember how I said every story of a relationship involves something super embarrassing happening at the beginning? Well, bingo. Cheers to that - here’s what happened. And also … Continue reading Every beginning has an embarrassing start it seems
Trying too hard to be happy leads to. . . sadness?
Throughout my eighteen years of living, one thing I’ve concluded is that being happy isn’t easy. People in this world say happiness is a choice, but if it truly was that easy wouldn’t everyone simply just choose to be happy? As humans, we have this innate quest to find these so-called feelings of joy and … Continue reading Trying too hard to be happy leads to. . . sadness?
Circumlocution
I’m talking to a beta fish. It’s the wee hours of the morning, and here I am, talking to a scarlet scaled beta fish. His name is Greg. He swims in circles around his highlighter yellow submarine and through his mini forest of navy and carnation colored artificial plants. He seems content in his home. … Continue reading Circumlocution
Do you know?
Hello again. I apologize for my distance, a lot has happened. Sorry to disappoint but, for this, we’re going to take a break from talking about E (spoiler alert: it’s an ending turned sorta-kinda tragic but for the best and most likely, for you, will be left a mystery like my identity) Anyhow, so, let’s … Continue reading Do you know?
Salmon, cucumber, avocado.
The sushi stares back at me eagerly awaiting to be chosen out of the plastic takeout container. Approximately five minutes ago, I slid on my ankle-high, knit snow boots, trudged outside in the frigid air without a coat, and went on a treasure hunt to find the delivery man. Five minutes before I ended up … Continue reading Salmon, cucumber, avocado.
So-Called City Girl 